Eleanor, this place is just sand.It cannot love you back. You know this. You must know this.Your father left you.Your mother was taken from you.Everyone you have ever loved you have lost and it terrifies you.But not me-I will never,ever leave you.I love you.-Black Sails,102 (x)
They paint the world full of shadows and then tell their children to stay close to the light. Their light. Their reason, their judgements. Because in the darkness, there be dragons. But it isn’t ture. We can prove that it isn’t true.
Where would we have gone? What? A long time ago, you asked me to leave Nassau with you to avoid ruin. If I had said yes, where would we have gone? I have no idea.I was so close to saying yes. There were good reasons to say yes and… I heard it in my mind, tried to speak it over and over again. But when the moment finally came...
At the end, when I felt I had surpassed [Eleanor] in every way, it seemed as though there was something she was still trying to say to me… She was trying to tell me, I just could not hear her, about what is truly important… You are the bravest person I have ever known. The truest person I have ever known. And I betrayed you and it sickens me. I am so sorry for working so hard to protect the wrong things.For failing to see that there is nothing important that does not include you.
I remember when I first met Eleanor, how stunned I was. A woman who spoke the way she did, who had no fear of the world or the men who reigned over it. When I became her lover, I watched the decisions she made and resolved to learn from them. When I became her rival, I watched the mistakes she made and resolved never to repeat them. But at the end, when I felt I had surpassed her in every way, it seemed as though there was something she was still trying to say to me. Surrendering everything she had sacrificed so dearly for, because it would have come at the expense of the one she loved. She was trying to tell me, I just could not hear her, about what is truly important.
When I became her lover, I watched the decisions she made and resolved to learn from them. When I became her rival, I watched the mistakes she made and resolved never to repeat them.
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